Time to get personal. Wait lemme sidenote for a minute here. Is it weird that I feel fine writing out my personal stuff online, but then when I find out friends/family read my posts I’m like oh hellllllll no. Here come the nerves.
Anyway, would you believe I’m actually relieved lately when I feel stress or sadness? I guess that’s what struggling with apathy and indifference can do to you (but I’ll save that for another post somewhere down the line).
Look now, I don’t want to call myself the queen of overthinking, but I’m going to. I have a crazily active brain and sometimes it gets to the point where I imagine what’s happening inside my brain, kind of like how they depict it in the film ‘Inside Out.’
I imagine inside my head there are just these circuit boards all steaming and fried from overwork. There’s one person probably in the middle of the room looking dishevelled, drinking tea, looking out at everything and just being like “ah f**k it, I give up.”
So sometimes I’m overthinking, and sometimes I just feel stressed, or sad, or overloaded. I’ve had to learn ways to deal with all of that, and here are 3 pieces of content that have helped the most:
My mum has been trying to get me to read Brene Brown for a while now, and finally, I gave in and listened to the audiobook version of ‘Daring Greatly.’ If you struggle with vulnerability, fear or putting yourself out there, read his book. If you’re feeling sad or stressed or overwhelmed, read this book. I don’t even quite know how to describe the contents of this book so I’m just going to say you have to read it yourself. What I found really calmed my mind though were the ways in which Brene Brown broke down all these societal ‘norms’ and pulled them apart, to the point where I realised that a lot of what I stress over isn’t founded in anything. I was just going off of out of whack societal norms that needs to be changed anyway.
If you’re feeling overloaded, concentration can be a tough one which is why I love that this book is broken down into very small, easily digestible chapters. In the book, Matt Haig talks about his experiences with depression and what he did, day by day and sometimes minute by minute to get out of that. It was one of the best books I’ve read in a long time and it pulled me from an intense sadness (or rather, numbness) that I had been going through at the time. If you have ever struggled with depression or anything to do with mental health, or if you just want a dose of perspective to help unpack your racing mind, this is the book for you.
I’ve tried various forms of meditation, and long term, none of them have worked for me. They may be a nice temporary fix, but I just can’t seem to stick with them. If you’re new to meditating, I’d really recommend downloading the (free) Headspace app (#notspon lol). You can do their basic 10 sessions which is what I did, and it’s basically just a man (the English accent is just a plus) guiding you through either a 3, 5 or 10-minute auditory meditation. My favourite thing about this app is it constantly breaks down what you think meditation is or should be. You don’t have to become some kind of a zen master and it’s fine if the whole time you’re meditating you’re still feeling stress. The point is that you learn to become more aware of your thoughts and hopefully, with time, you can learn to let thoughts be there but not interact or let them stress you etc.